Better, But Not Better

The pain in my lower back decided to travel south to my arthritic right knee. Lovely, isn’t it? Granted, I’m not suffering with pain in my lower back, but now I’m hobbling everywhere. Ugh. I can’t win. The silver lining is that my heating pad is arriving today. It amazes me that things are being delivered on a Sunday. But, ya know what? At least my heating pad is arriving today. *does happy dance*

In other news, I am getting back into gaming. I played WoW for a few hours, as well as a few hours in EQ2. As long as it keeps me occupied and keeps me from dwelling on the upcoming winter season, then all the better. You see, not only do I have clinical depression, but every fall (late fall to be exact) and every winter, my depression worsens because of the lack of light (seasonal affective disorder). Because of that, my interest in gaming starts to suffer. All the things I love just seems to suck. I want to lay in bed and sleep all day. And as an adult, I have to adult. And ya know what? Adulting sucks when your depression worsens. Adulting sucks anyway, but depression just sucks every ounce of energy out of your body. Just getting out of bed seems like a huge effort. Yup.


Thank god

My pain has gone for now, due to Neurontin. Thank fucking god. If it weren’t for Neurontin, I’d be sitting here in pain like usual. So, my plan is this: if the pain comes back, take another pill.

In other news, I think I’m getting back into posting and such. Yay for me!

Man, I remember I used to have a huge following. And then suddenly I stopped blogging for some odd reason. However, I do hope I write more regularly and gain more followers and such.


Pain, pain, pain, pain… Ugh

The past few days have been torture, torture, torture. I originally was on an antibiotic for an ear infection. A few days in, my lower back starts to kill me out of nowhere. And now? Oh, my god. I can’t even lay in bed without wanting to scream. I can barely sleep, I can barely do anything. Laying on my left side sort of relieves some of the pain, laying on my right side just intensifies it. Forget about laying on my back directly. I ordered a heating pad from Amazon, so we’ll see how that goes.

I can’t find any relief. I don’t even know why my lower back is flaring up. Is it because of the antibiotics? Is it because of PMS (and yeah, it’s that time of the month)? Both are known to cause lower back pain; either directly or indirectly. The pain is so intense that sometimes I just want to die rather than continue suffering in pain.

In other news, I can’t wait until this goddamn election is over and done with. I am so fucking goddamn tired of seeing all these political ads on television. I’m already determined whom I’m voting for, why do I need to be bombarded with political ads so close to election time? The more I see them, the more I want to throw my T.V. out the window. Perhaps it’s my pain that’s making me so goddamn agitated. Who knows?

What do you think?

The Pain! Ew.

So, this past week.. my knee has been killing me. So much so that I’m limping around the school campus. By the time I get home, I’m crying from pain. I carry around a huge ass book bag, because well.. I need materials to learn with at school. So, all that weight is baring down on my knees and back. The upside though is that my upper body no longer hurts, because the book bag is straightening my back out. Since I have huge breasts, they tend to make me hunched over from the weight, but the weight of the book bag pulls my shoulders back, allowing me to sit up straight. This also no longer puts pressure on my upper back.

My theory about why my knee is killing me is that I recently started taking a Vitamin D pill again. I remember a few months ago, Blake started taking a Vitamin D pill and his back started to kill him SOOOOOOOO much. Side effects of too much Vitamin D in the blood are: ” vomiting, constipation, dehydration, irritability, bone pain, sore eyes, muscle problems, frequent need to urinate, anorexia (decreased appetite) and fatigue.” So, perhaps my body is not eliminating the vitamin D. I don’t know.

I’m going to conduct an experiment. I’m going to stop taking my vitamin D pill for about a week or so. If the pain decreases, then the culprit is the vitamin. If the pain continues, I’m going to try going without the pill for a 2nd week. If after 2 weeks, I’m still in pain, I’m going to sum it up to stupid arthritis.

Wish me luck.

Tired & Sore

Today was my 3rd day of school and my god. My calves are incredibly sore. I have never done so much walking in my life. I keep telling myself… “The more I do it, the less my body will hurt.” I like my classes so far, so I’m happy about that. I just want my soreness to go away.

I decided that I would take classes 5 days a week, that way I would be out and about and not be a lazy vegetable at home. The reason why my calves are so sore, is because I’m out of shape. The college has a gym and they also have a yoga class. I’m probably going to go there on Monday and ask them when they hold their yoga classes. Stretching would greatly help my sore muscles. I hate the pain, but I’m happy I’m doing something finally. Even if I’m in pain for a few weeks. Eventually that pain will go away with more walking.

The more I walk, the less my calves will hurt.” I wish it was sooner than later, but oh well. Happy I’m getting this stuff out of the way.


Tomorrow will be a week since I’ve been in tons of pain. I can barely even stand up straight when I walk around. If it weren’t for asperin and pain killers, I would have been in more pain. And because of all my pain, I can’t enjoy the things I love the most (gaming, reading, etc.). All I can think about is how much my back hurts. I’m sleeping more often because of it. I’d rather be sleeping than be in pain.

Tomorrow, I’m seeing my pain management doctor. Since darvocet’s been taken off the market, so hopefully she can prescribe something better. I’m hoping to get some vicodin or something similar. I have no idea how I hurt my back either. I knew I have a herniated disc, but I haven’t had any falls or whatever before the pain started. Last Monday I was perfectly fine. Bleh.

Black Kitteh

I was playing EQ2 the other day and went over to Halas to do some quests with their festival (they have festivals in home cities every month). So, I saw that one of the vendors had a black robe for like 10 tokens. Did 2 quests, got my 10 tokens and viola. I’mma kitteh in all black. Wee! In case you’re wondering, that’s my dog dog “Heystupid” in the background (I’mma mystic).

In other news, my back is still killing me. Me thinks I have an inflamed disc. I’ve been taking aspirin, but the pain isn’t entirely gone. It’s less severe, but it still hurts like fucking hell when I walk around. Bleh. I have no idea how I happened to re-injure my back. I was completely fine on Monday and then Tuesday comes along.. and I’m crying in pain. *sigh*