Truly Saddened

I am truly saddened, folks. Really, I am. The country, as a whole, decided to elect a man who is sexist, bigoted, misogynist, racist, and a whole slew of things I’m forgetting. As a woman, I am appalled at how many other women voted for him. After all the things he has said on tape about women, I am surprised and just.. appalled that these women could even think to vote for such a horrible individual. I understand not wanting to vote for Hillary, I understand. I didn’t want her as my president either. But, you had a 3rd choice. There was always a third choice. And yet, you women decided to throw away your morals and your dignity for a horrid monster of a human being. I am truly ashamed to be a woman. I am ashamed for the women who voted for him.


I am not a radical feminist, however, part of me is a simple feminist who was taken aback at his comments. To be able to do whatever he pleased, just because he could get away with it. How do you women justify that when you went to vote? How do you sleep at night?


I’m just disgusted at the human race right now.


Ugh! My Wallet is Stolen!

I had my math class last night. We ended the class at around 7P.M. So, I get to the terminal where I have to take my last bus home… And as soon as I get on the bus and sit down, I notice that one of my pockets in my bookbag was unzipped. This part of my backpack held my wallet (the wallet held my debit card, my state issued i.d., my college i.d., and my debit card). I noticed that my wallet was missing. Some douche bag asshole pickpocketed me. I didn’t even notice someone going in. I’m surprised that they didn’t take my cell phone.

The thing that pisses me off though.. I always keep my bookbag zipped up at all times. It was zipped up on the first bus going towards the train station, it was zipped up during my train ride. However, it was unzipped when I got on the freaking last bus. Like, what the fuck, man? This is another reason why I hate Philadelphia. People have no decency. Why would you stoop so low to steal something? Soon as I came home, I searched my bag to see if I had just misplaced my wallet. Nope. No wallet.

So, I called my bank to cancel my debit card and to reissue another one. This morning, I checked my bank statement online and the asshole who stole my wallet made a charge at a McDonald’s. That motherfucker! It made me wonder why that asshole was able to make a charge when I had already cancelled my card. So, I called up my bank.. filed a thing with them. They not only will refund my money that was stolen from me, but they said that if the douche bag was caught, they will press charges. Well, they asked me if I wanted to press charges. I said yes. Not only is it theft, but it’s also fraud (being that when you present your debit/credit card to a merchant, you’re acknowledging the fact that you are that person on the card). So, it’s two counts (theft and fraud) and I’ll make sure that motherfucker gets prosecuted (if they are caught).

One thing that’s funny though; dumb assholes who charge things with other people’s cards don’t realize that majority of things today are electronic. Not only is there a timestamp on the purchase, but there’s a video camera in most stores, including McDonald’s. My bank also stated that if I had any other charges on my card to report it immediately.

Not only am I pissed off at the person who stole my wallet, but I’m also pissed off at myself for not noticing. I know I’m being hard on myself and that it’s not my fault it happened, but this has never happened to me before.

Pissed Off

I’ve had tinnitus since I was a kid. I have no clue how I happened to get it, nor do I even remember what happened as a kid to cause me to have such a condition. For the past 5 years, I have been going to doctor after doctor to find out what the fuck is wrong with my head. I’ve taken anti-psychotic medication, it didn’t work because now.. I know it’s not caused by psychosis. I went to an ear, nose, and throat doctor. He says he sees nothing physically wrong with my ears. Hearing test came back normal. Then I go see a neurologist. I go through a seizure test to see if I have seizures; which he thinks might be causing the tinnitus. Seizure test came  back normal (although personally, I think I may have petite mal seizures.. but that’s another story). Anyway, my point is. To this very day, I have absolutely no clue why I have tinnitus. No fucking clue. So, last week… I visit my family doctor to ask for a cat scan or MRI to see if there’s any possibly physical damage to my ear canal or ear drums, etc. They call up my health insurance and ask for an approval number for my cat scan. And guess what? Those motherfucking pricks at the insurance company don’t want to pay for a cat scan. I could possibly have a benign tumor in my head and those cheap pricks don’t want to fucking pay. *sigh* When I get home today, I plan on calling them up and chewing them a new asshole. And find out WHY it was denied. It’s not like I’m asking them for a cosmetic procedure. The cat scan I’m asking for is medically necessary for fuck’s sake.

And this is why I want to fucking move out of the United States. I don’t care where I go. I just don’t want to live here anymore. As soon as I get my degree, I plan on checking out the job market in Canada. Fuck it. Tired of living in a country where the economy is going downhill quick. There is no light at the end of the tunnel.

Sony Pisses Me Off!

So, Sony announced their date for the next Fan Faire. Of course, it’s in Las Vegas yet again. Once upon a time, they used to allow players to choose a city. Not anymore. Their excuse is that it’s cost effective. Cost effective my balls. Sony makes billions every year, they can certainly afford to have Fan Faire in another city, for fuck’s sake. You know what pisses me off the most? I’ve been playing Sony games for the past 6 years, for once I would actually like to attend a Fan Faire in my lifetime. Last Vegas is certainly not in my price range. And with unemployment skyrocketing, I’m pretty sure that players would love to have it closer to home.

And as I’ve always stated, Sony only cares about your money. Not you as a person. Why should they? They have their hands dipped in almost everything (electronic wise). They’re making plenty of money; why should they even give a fuck about you? Thanks again, you douche bags.

Everquest Loyalty Program & New Server

Yesterday, the developers pushed out the ‘everquest loyalty program’ thingy onto live servers. Basically, the longer you subscribe to the game, the more shiny things you can buy with your loyalty tokens. So, instead of pushing more crap onto the Station Cash and making people spend real money on crap they don’t need, they give you something in-game. People are complaining left and right on the forums, like little children. The developers do something nice for once and people are already up in arms. Can’t please everyone, I guess.

One thing they did fuck up though is opening up a new server. For why? Mayong was a complete flop. I was there since opening day and finally got the fuck off in mid-August. By the time I left, the biggest raiding guild on the server pretty much abandoned the place and my guild was the biggest on the server with a whopping 500 people. The idea of even opening a new server is pretty much a retarded idea. Whoever makes these decisions obviously doesn’t play the game. How about just hiring gamers who actually play the fucking game, instead of hiring mongoloids who don’t?

Which brings me to my next thought. Bring back Zatzoia to the EQ1 forums. Kiara and her loyal minions are a bunch of forum nazi’s and a bunch of douche bags. I especially hate her and her little snooty attitude. You can’t even write a constructive post without her or one her titty sucking d-bags deleting it.

Open Letter

Dear Erik,

I’m not sure if you read my blog, I hope you do though. I’ve known you since April 2010 when I met you on your home server. Originally and throughout the time I’ve known you, my gut instinct was not to trust you. There was something off-putting about you. In the end, I was right.

You see, I have been there for you since I’ve known you. I have tried my best to put a smile on your face whenever you cried, whenever you felt worthless, or whenever you felt like a complete bum. You and I have had our disagreements and worked them out, because I thought you were an adult. The final straw was last Thursday.

What I wanted from you was a shoulder to cry on. I just wanted to hear your voice. Instead, you told me that I made you feel worthless because I wanted you to talk more often. Instead of being a shoulder to cry on, you added even more stress and made me feel even worse than I did that day. I felt like you completely didn’t care about me or didn’t care about helping me feel better.

I have never asked anything of you, except for a shoulder to cry on. I never asked you to change yourself for me. Through the time I’ve known you, you have asked me several times to change my personality to suit you. If you truly did “love” and “care” for me, you would have never asked me to change. Instead, you would have accepted me for who I am. You are a selfish person, Erik.

In that mind of yours, this is all my fault for making you miserable and unhappy. But, this isn’t the case. You are a petty and selfish child, pointing fingers at everyone else but yourself. For once in your life, please do yourself a favor and look deep inside yourself. Examine why I stopped talking to you.

Today is the day I stop letting you make me cry. Stop letting you make me feel like garbage. And stop believing that it was my fault for ending things. You will not be making me feel horrible any longer. Don’t bother leaving messages through e-mail or text messages. I’m done with you and wiping my hands clean of you.


Both my father and his family doctor are idiots. She gave him diabetic medicine, without even testing him properly. As someone who had to go through the process of getting tested, it pisses me off that she’s so goddamn incompetent. She hasn’t even issued a glucose tolerance test; which determines if you have diabetes. She’s just going by a blood sugar test, which fluctuates anyways and he’s too dumb to even take the test on an empty stomach. Taking diabetic medicine when you’re not even diabetic can land you in the fucking hospital, but he doesn’t want to listen to me. He thinks I’m crazy for taking his pills away from him and flushing them down the toilet. Excuse me if I don’t you to end up in the fucking hospital for taking medicine you’re not supposed to take. That’s like giving Synthroid to a patient that doesn’t have problems with their thyroid; just because they’re complaining that their throat hurts a little.

Sometimes I just want to smack the living piss out of people for being so goddamn stupid.