Slept All Day


So, uh. I slept all day. Is that a bad thing? I think the biggest reason why I slept all damn day is because I didn’t want to deal with reality. I didn’t want to deal with what happened yesterday. I didn’t want to hear about what others though on Facebook, or the news on TV, etc. I wanted to zone out into sleepy land and just not deal. I guess I accomplished that by sleeping all day. And you know what? I don’t care if I did.

Granted, it’ll just be there when I wake up. It’ll be there tomorrow. It’ll still be there next week and next month. It’ll be there for the next 4 years. I can’t just sleep my way through it. I have other things to do and I can’t just sleep through it. I suppose I just wanted a day to myself to be selfish and just not care or give a fuck.


Truly Saddened

I am truly saddened, folks. Really, I am. The country, as a whole, decided to elect a man who is sexist, bigoted, misogynist, racist, and a whole slew of things I’m forgetting. As a woman, I am appalled at how many other women voted for him. After all the things he has said on tape about women, I am surprised and just.. appalled that these women could even think to vote for such a horrible individual. I understand not wanting to vote for Hillary, I understand. I didn’t want her as my president either. But, you had a 3rd choice. There was always a third choice. And yet, you women decided to throw away your morals and your dignity for a horrid monster of a human being. I am truly ashamed to be a woman. I am ashamed for the women who voted for him.


I am not a radical feminist, however, part of me is a simple feminist who was taken aback at his comments. To be able to do whatever he pleased, just because he could get away with it. How do you women justify that when you went to vote? How do you sleep at night?


I’m just disgusted at the human race right now.

Pissed Off

I’ve had tinnitus since I was a kid. I have no clue how I happened to get it, nor do I even remember what happened as a kid to cause me to have such a condition. For the past 5 years, I have been going to doctor after doctor to find out what the fuck is wrong with my head. I’ve taken anti-psychotic medication, it didn’t work because now.. I know it’s not caused by psychosis. I went to an ear, nose, and throat doctor. He says he sees nothing physically wrong with my ears. Hearing test came back normal. Then I go see a neurologist. I go through a seizure test to see if I have seizures; which he thinks might be causing the tinnitus. Seizure test came  back normal (although personally, I think I may have petite mal seizures.. but that’s another story). Anyway, my point is. To this very day, I have absolutely no clue why I have tinnitus. No fucking clue. So, last week… I visit my family doctor to ask for a cat scan or MRI to see if there’s any possibly physical damage to my ear canal or ear drums, etc. They call up my health insurance and ask for an approval number for my cat scan. And guess what? Those motherfucking pricks at the insurance company don’t want to pay for a cat scan. I could possibly have a benign tumor in my head and those cheap pricks don’t want to fucking pay. *sigh* When I get home today, I plan on calling them up and chewing them a new asshole. And find out WHY it was denied. It’s not like I’m asking them for a cosmetic procedure. The cat scan I’m asking for is medically necessary for fuck’s sake.

And this is why I want to fucking move out of the United States. I don’t care where I go. I just don’t want to live here anymore. As soon as I get my degree, I plan on checking out the job market in Canada. Fuck it. Tired of living in a country where the economy is going downhill quick. There is no light at the end of the tunnel.


I went to open up my Limewire today to get some music I had heard on my satellite radio. And I see this:

What gets me is that these courts and/or companies are so incredibly stupid. Once you shut down one piece of area that allows music distribution, you open up 10. For example, if you want a music video from YouTube, all you would have to do is go to an a web site like, type in the url and voila. You have your music video. I take it one step further. I strip the mp3 out of the video and there. I have the mp3 on my ipod.

And technically speaking, it’s not “stealing” music. Let me give you 2 definitions of “stealing”.

-Usually, stealings. something that is stolen.

-given to or characterized by theft.

What that means basically.. is if I go into your home and steal your television, you’re no longer in possession of said television. That is the true definition of stealing. If I were to go into your home and make a copy of your television and leave.. and you’re still in possession of it (your master copy of the song, in this case), how am I “stealing”? Smart people of the interwebs, please explain to me how that is theft?

Before anyone decides to comment, let me explain this to you. If I never had the intention of buying the record, the artist would have never made money off of me in the first place. If they’re not getting money from me buying their record, how is downloading one song any different?

Record companies would rather dig deep in your pockets and steal from you, my hard working people. Rather than be happy that people are spending money at concerts to see these very same people, they go on a crusade to put little old ladies who don’t have a computer in jail. These people are worse than the IRS. I have never bought a copy of an Evanescence album, but have yet managed to go see them TWICE in concert.  My money from the concert goes directly to the band, unlike record sales. To me, going to a concert supports my favorite bands more than just buying their record.


In Germany they first came for the Communists, and I didn’t speak up because I wasn’t a Communist. Then they came for the Jews, and I didn’t speak up because I wasn’t a Jew. Then they came for the Trade Unionists, and I didn’t speak up because I wasn’t a Trade Unionist. Then they came for the Catholics, and I didn’t speak up because I was a Protestant. Then they came for me. And by that time, no-one was left to speak up.

Martin Niemöller

Driving Me Nuts!

I sincerely cannot wait until this fucking election is over and done with. Seriously. I am so tired of hearing all the bullshit political commericals that are coming out. “Well.. he said this and he said that.” You know what? Suck on my balls. That’s right. Suck my balls until they’re completely emptied. I personally support Obama, but I just cannot wait until this crap is done with. Thank god that it only happens once every 4 years. Jebus.

An Excerpt

The following is an excerpt from “Johnny Got His Gun”. It struck a cord with me, because I fully believe that the war in Iraq and Afghanistan are a waste of our time and money. Please read with an open mind.